Wise words from my friend Luke, when Neesy told him she wasn’t good at relationships.
Mind you she’s been married, had a child, and has had relationships that lasted years!
I used to be so ashamed of the fact that i’ve never had a relationship with a guy that lasted more than a couple months.
I admit it still pulls a slight twinge in my heart thinking about it.
I mean it’s my dream to love a guy, feel good with him, feel safe with him, and that we have something strong !
Wait, where was i going with this?
Right.. something like, i really took Luke’s advice to heart that day.
And i just wanna say that i feel amazing as who i am now. I love myself and that’s the greatest relationship i could ask for.
I feel loved and secure and warm and sure! Because my love is just free, and i have so much to give, and i don’t need assurance from someone else that i am also loved. That’s true love.
And i like to think that being myself applies to everything i do. When i play music, when i cam, when i… do my hair in the morning…
Just being myself works.
There’s no mold.
It’s the simplest thing.
But accepting myself. As i am.
That was the hardest thing, and my greatest joy and accomplishment.
On a funnier note, I was just minding my own business when i got a Snapchat of Tinder boy Brad’s dick with the caption “me horny.”
“Yay!” I said, and i started getting naked and snapping sexy pictures,
and then he sent me a video of himself stroking his dick,
and then i sent him a video of me touching myself,
and he said “OMG!!”
And then i sent him an up-close of my pussy,
and then there was silence.
for 3 minutes.
I was so horny and had planned another three hot poses.
and then 3 minutes more passed…
Me: Brad have I lost you?!
Brad: I’m watching a movie.
And that was it.
I need better cyber sex friends.
but that story’s for next time…